Watermelon Woman


Up, up and away
March 20, 2010, Saturday,5:28 pm
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The news was good! No change in my CA-125 blood work. CA-125 is a marker that can indicate the presence of a tumor. I can take a few days off from work and enjoy myself without worry. Hopefully, when I return, the garden will have been weeded. With the constant rain the weeds are beyond a little pulling. Someone will come and weed wack. From there I can manage my veggie garden and add some mulch to the retaining wall section. I have put off starting seeds because I knew being away for a week would kill anything started that needed to be watered. I hope I won’t regret the decision.

The weather has been wonderful the past week. High 60’s and low 70’s. You can’t ask for more in March. Whether we return to the rainy days is out of my control so I’ll try going with the flow.

I have asked for a retirement assessment which will tell me if I have enough time in and what I can expect my retirement pay would be. The more critical factor is the number of years since that will determine whether my health insurance is covered completely or not. There will be so many steps to do prior to the actual retirement as well. Lots of paperwork. The other aspect is the house. Getting it in shape for selling will be a major expense. I know I want to leave the area but not yet sure to where yet. Time for the hunt to get serious. Wish me luck.

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Wet Yard
March 13, 2010, Saturday,8:15 am
Filed under: Gardening, health, ovarian cancer | Tags: , ,

The grounds are still soaking from the continuous rain over the past five months. How long will it take to dry out? Should I pull weeds now when it is easier but chance pacting the soil? We are supposed to have at least seven days of sun.

The blackberries that I bought for my son are still on our patio. I planted 3 in one big container. Each has new shoots growing. The lemon and mandarin trees are looking good as well. They have enjoyed all the rain. The early tomatoes are still growing stronger. I’m hoping for a taste early in the summer!

I have had my blood work on the latest CA-125. Waiting is the hardest part. As much as I’m trying to be optimistic I still fear the worst. Add in my work stress and I’m pretty much a basket case. We have a scheduled holiday coming up at the end of March (Spring Break) and I hope the time off will not be spent worrying about the next chemo. Report to come later.



Who are you?
March 1, 2010, Monday,9:49 pm
Filed under: Gardening, ovarian cancer, weather | Tags: , , , ,

Walking around the lake two Saturdays ago, I saw my sister coming from the other direction. I stopped to wait for her and smiled at her. My sister did not recognize me! To her credit, she had not seen me since I stopped wearing my blond wig to hide my head while my hair grew out. Before chemo, I had long blond, straight hair. I now have short, brown and curly hair. Quite a change for me too!

We met for lunch later in the week, again my sister did not realize that it was me until I got really close to the car. LOL. My other sister said she would have recognized me (sure, sure). Guess I don’t look like me anymore, but I’m glad I have hair again.

The anniversary of my surgery is coming up soon. As an almost one year survivor, I don’t feel safe. While I go through my days mostly not thinking about cancer, I also realize that I have this overwhelming feeling that there is more to come. People tell me all the time that I am strong and have a good outlook on my situation. I think I’m a fake, pretending that everything is okay when I am really scared to death. This is probably “normal” reaction but I need to be more confident that I will be  one of the good statistics. Maybe pretending to be optimistic will turn into a true feeling.

Weeds have taken over the backyard and with more rain coming, it may be April before I can get out there and set things right. Something to look forward to…