Watermelon Woman


No, I did not die.
November 9, 2012, Friday,3:52 pm
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I forgot my password and lost my info. May I blame it on chem-brain? I figured that the blog was lost for good. Just an fyi, spaces (in typing) matter and having too many email accounts can really mess with you! So, it was spring the last time I wrote and had just passed my 3rd survivor anniversary. Now my 4th is coming up in April. And I’ve reached the ripe, old age of 62. Still trying to wrap my head around that one! I will try to not lose my info again and write a little more often. It can be a New Year’s resolution.My Sister-in-Law is having radiation for breast cancer. So far she will not need chemotherapy. A very happy bit of news for her.



Third Anniversary
March 17, 2012, Saturday,2:37 pm
Filed under: ovarian cancer, Uncategorized | Tags: , ,

My third anniversary surviving ovarian cancer is coming up. Grateful that I am still showing low CA125 numbers. A three-month test is needed now. Whenever it is time to test again I become very anxious. I don’t trust my body. There is double anxiety this time. At my recent dental cleaning,the dental assistant spotted something on my tongue that she wanted the dentist to look at. The dentist will do a biopsy in a week and I will find out if I need laser surgery to remove whatever it is. Do you have chemo for cancer of the tongue? I have been afraid to look at the medical info. Guess that makes me a coward. I haven’t told my husband yet. There is no sense in haven’t the two of us worry and I think he would rather not know. At least not yet. I will share once the biopsy report is in. Wish me luck.



Good Test
October 6, 2010, Wednesday,5:43 pm
Filed under: Misc., ovarian cancer, weather

For those who care, my tests were good! I was a wreck just before and then again while waiting for the results. I’m still very low even though the number went up by one. Big sigh of relieve.

We had a short, fairly intense burst of rain this afternoon. Nice. I dropped my lunch (chickenwith rice) all over the floor as I was putting in the microwave. Big mess to clean up. I was hungry too.

I was trainer for a new employee today. It was great to have new, young employee that I don’t have to explain what a blog or Twitter or Facebook is. Yeah! I worked with a lot of older people who can’t or are unwilling to learn anything new, particularly with regard to technology. Sigh.

Time to have dinner and then rest.



Falling
October 3, 2010, Sunday,5:31 pm
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It is definitely Fall, which is to say some of the warmest weather of the summer. The warmer weather comes too late for my tomatoes. I really only got the cherry volunteers and one or two from the medium-sized group. What the weather didn’t finish off, the underground rodent did.

I’m anxious right now as I have another test to take to determine if tumors have returned. There also be a CT scan as well. It took me a while to figure out why I couldn’t settle on my projects. This is how I was feeling three months a ago just prior to my last tests.

Wish me luck. I need to get going on my fall garden.



Wet Yard
March 13, 2010, Saturday,8:15 am
Filed under: Gardening, health, ovarian cancer | Tags: , ,

The grounds are still soaking from the continuous rain over the past five months. How long will it take to dry out? Should I pull weeds now when it is easier but chance pacting the soil? We are supposed to have at least seven days of sun.

The blackberries that I bought for my son are still on our patio. I planted 3 in one big container. Each has new shoots growing. The lemon and mandarin trees are looking good as well. They have enjoyed all the rain. The early tomatoes are still growing stronger. I’m hoping for a taste early in the summer!

I have had my blood work on the latest CA-125. Waiting is the hardest part. As much as I’m trying to be optimistic I still fear the worst. Add in my work stress and I’m pretty much a basket case. We have a scheduled holiday coming up at the end of March (Spring Break) and I hope the time off will not be spent worrying about the next chemo. Report to come later.



Who are you?
March 1, 2010, Monday,9:49 pm
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Walking around the lake two Saturdays ago, I saw my sister coming from the other direction. I stopped to wait for her and smiled at her. My sister did not recognize me! To her credit, she had not seen me since I stopped wearing my blond wig to hide my head while my hair grew out. Before chemo, I had long blond, straight hair. I now have short, brown and curly hair. Quite a change for me too!

We met for lunch later in the week, again my sister did not realize that it was me until I got really close to the car. LOL. My other sister said she would have recognized me (sure, sure). Guess I don’t look like me anymore, but I’m glad I have hair again.

The anniversary of my surgery is coming up soon. As an almost one year survivor, I don’t feel safe. While I go through my days mostly not thinking about cancer, I also realize that I have this overwhelming feeling that there is more to come. People tell me all the time that I am strong and have a good outlook on my situation. I think I’m a fake, pretending that everything is okay when I am really scared to death. This is probably “normal” reaction but I need to be more confident that I will be  one of the good statistics. Maybe pretending to be optimistic will turn into a true feeling.

Weeds have taken over the backyard and with more rain coming, it may be April before I can get out there and set things right. Something to look forward to…



Wind, Rain, Sleet, Hail, Thunder and Snow
January 22, 2010, Friday,8:31 pm
Filed under: flowers, Gardening, ovarian cancer, seeds, weather | Tags: , ,

The weather was quite something today. We had wind, rain, sleet, hail and thunder too. The hills even had some snow this morning! I am happy to have a window in my cubicle so I can see the outside. I have a lovely tree outside my window that changes with the season.  The wind was blowing the rain sideways on to the window which is why I heard when the hail started. A co-worker and I had returned from a walk in the sun just an hour or so when all of the fun stuff started!.

We are supposed to have a short break in the rain starting tomorrow afternoon and until Sunday afternoon.

I am hoping that this will give me enough time to plant a few seeds in my raised beds. My Baker Creek order has arrived and I would like to get started on the cool weather items:

  • Sweet Pea Dolly Darden
  • Tonda di Parigi Carrots
  • Harris Model Parsnips
  • Lilac PomPom Poppy
  • Mother of Pearl Poppy
  • Mizuna Greens

This is by no means my full order. Other seeds such as tomato, watermelon, squash, okra, sunflowers, etc., will need to either be started first or wait until warmer weather to sow. I will post the varieties in the spring.

I received excellent news today on my latest blood work. I know that I won’t be doing chemo for at least the next 3 months. A CT scan and more blood work will follow then. It is a little crazy to try living each day and not thinking about what might happen 3 months down the road. Some of the weight I’ve been carrying is off my shoulders at least for a while. 2010 is looking good so far!