Watermelon Woman


No, I did not die.
November 9, 2012, Friday,3:52 pm
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I forgot my password and lost my info. May I blame it on chem-brain? I figured that the blog was lost for good. Just an fyi, spaces (in typing) matter and having too many email accounts can really mess with you! So, it was spring the last time I wrote and had just passed my 3rd survivor anniversary. Now my 4th is coming up in April. And I’ve reached the ripe, old age of 62. Still trying to wrap my head around that one! I will try to not lose my info again and write a little more often. It can be a New Year’s resolution.My Sister-in-Law is having radiation for breast cancer. So far she will not need chemotherapy. A very happy bit of news for her.

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Who are you?
March 1, 2010, Monday,9:49 pm
Filed under: Gardening, ovarian cancer, weather | Tags: , , , ,

Walking around the lake two Saturdays ago, I saw my sister coming from the other direction. I stopped to wait for her and smiled at her. My sister did not recognize me! To her credit, she had not seen me since I stopped wearing my blond wig to hide my head while my hair grew out. Before chemo, I had long blond, straight hair. I now have short, brown and curly hair. Quite a change for me too!

We met for lunch later in the week, again my sister did not realize that it was me until I got really close to the car. LOL. My other sister said she would have recognized me (sure, sure). Guess I don’t look like me anymore, but I’m glad I have hair again.

The anniversary of my surgery is coming up soon. As an almost one year survivor, I don’t feel safe. While I go through my days mostly not thinking about cancer, I also realize that I have this overwhelming feeling that there is more to come. People tell me all the time that I am strong and have a good outlook on my situation. I think I’m a fake, pretending that everything is okay when I am really scared to death. This is probably “normal” reaction but I need to be more confident that I will be  one of the good statistics. Maybe pretending to be optimistic will turn into a true feeling.

Weeds have taken over the backyard and with more rain coming, it may be April before I can get out there and set things right. Something to look forward to…



What’s next
September 26, 2009, Saturday,8:59 am
Filed under: Family, health, ovarian cancer | Tags: , , ,

On the health front, I’ve had another CA-125 with a level of 11. That is very good. Being the perfectionist I really wanted “0” but below 35 is supposed to be “normal”. My CT looked good as well. So, in 3 months I will see the doctor again, another CA-125 and then in March another CT.

It is strange to begin a “regular” life again. The nurse said that was a similar reaction to others finishing their chemo. I feel like I’m hanging out with no support. That isn’t true of course but it is what it is.  I had been under the impression that my hair would start to grow in 4-8 weeks but the nurse said 8-16 and about 4-5 months until I have maybe an inch of hair. Not at all what I wanted to hear so I will learn patience and be grateful that waiting for hair is the only problem I am dealing with so far.

My sister’s surgery went well and her lymph nodes are clear. There are more tests but it is looking good.