Watermelon Woman

Five out of six
August 13, 2009, Thursday,6:20 pm
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Today I had my fifth chemotherapy session.

I started a new-to-me book called, “Soprano Sorceress” by L.E. Modesitt, Jr. This is the first book of the Spellsong Cycle. In this fantasy Anna, a divorced, non-tenured, soprano singer was in the wrong place at the wrong time or right place at the right time depending on what happens when she is conjured by singing sorceress in another world (dimension?). Erde is an earth-like planet with big problems. A fight between darksongs and clearsongs is threatening to cause chaos on Erde by controlling the weather and thus food supply (among other dire possibilities, I’m sure.)

I’m not very far into the book, but Anna is a very appealing character, smart and spunky and fast on her feet–a very good quality given she is a songmaster, whether she wants to be or not.

The book kept me involved and not thinking about where I was. Good deal all around.

Lost weekend
June 17, 2009, Wednesday,8:24 pm
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This past weekend was a lost one. Nausea and pains were my best friends. I tried to go back to work on Monday but had to come home. Today was much better although I still get tired very quickly.

On Tuesday, I received a very unexpected surprise gift of a quilt. Something to keep me warm during chemo. My quilter friend and co-worker suprised the heck out of me. I have had nothing but great support from co-workers. bless them one and all.

I had a lovely lunch with my sister. We had lots to catch up on and I miss seeing her more often.

It is good that figs are strong. I actually have some tiny figlets on my 2 year old tree that I planted in a pot. I saw the squirrel trotting off with one of my donut peaches. I hope it gives him a belly ache!

I haven’t been consistent with my poor plants and I’ll be lucky not to lose more than I already have. Only the weeds are happy. I hope for a clean start in the fall when I’m done with all the chemo.

We hope to take a short trip next week. I have some vacation time and it will be put to good use. A little R&R sounds delightful

2 down, 4 to go
June 12, 2009, Friday,6:34 am
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I had my second round of chemotherapy yesterday. It was mostly okay with the exception of the jumpy legs (aka restless leg syndrome or RLS) . Apparently this is caused by Benydrl so we will use something else next time. I would almost fall asleep and my legs would jump and wake me. I ended up way more tired than I needed to be.

I had a different nurse than last time which was okay but when I asked about side effects reducing after each chemo she told me that some people had an accumulative effect with the fatigue. Not what I wanted to hear at all and not what the doctor told me. Agh. I am optimistically ¬†holding on to the doctor’s version that each time is a little better. I feel fine today and will go to work now. Sunday will be the day that I expect the pains/fatigue to start. We’ll see, eh?

For those few of you that came to my site for a dose of gardening, please forgive me the lapse to garden talk. Consider this the deep, dark winter time for my garden–nothing happening except growing weeds which I’m too tired (depressed?) to go out and pull. I promise to do better in the future.

Aches and Pains
May 27, 2009, Wednesday,8:32 pm
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The first three days after chemo were uneventful and as noted I could walk and do mostly what I needed to do. Then came the fourth day. I have never been so fatigued. Each step took so much effort. Then the aches and pains started. Sharper than what I expected since they were described as flu-like. This lasted three days. The aches were much less today so that I could generally not think about them and focus on walking across the room to brush my teeth.

Am I complaining too much? If so, I must mention that not being nauseated is great and so fortunate. I cannot imagine adding that to the other symptoms. So, yeah, no nausea! And, I still have my hair so far, another plus.

I am so lucky to have a great family supporting me, stepping in and taking over when I cannot. I love them dearly.

One down, five to go
May 22, 2009, Friday,6:56 am
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The first chemo treatment is done. I spent most of the day hooked up to an IV, having my blood pressure checked and waiting for any side effects that might happen. Fortunately, I had no bad effects. Later in the evening, I notice some redness on my face and this morning on my neck and chest. It doesn’t itch, thankfully. I expected some nausea but was able to take my walk and I’m drinking my coffee. I’m hoping that I’ll be able to continue my life and work without too much fatigue and sickness. Wish me luck!

My last chemo will be on my birthday in the fall. That’s okay by me. I could be growing my hair again by the holidays.

Not one, two
May 14, 2009, Thursday,3:58 pm
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Having seen the doctor yesterday and discussed pathology reports, I can say I have a two cancers of completely different types. No literature on treatment so the chemo cocktail is the doctor’s best guess on how to start. After a few rounds, we can re-evaluate.

I haven’t finished processing the news. Chemo starts next week. Tomorrow a CT and chemo class with others new cancer patients.

Nothing feels real. Is that denial?

May 12, 2009, Tuesday,7:09 am
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Tomorrow is the day I find out what kind of chemotherapy I will have. I want to get going but am scared silly as well. There is a chance that I won’t be sick with the chemo and my not lose my hair. I don’t really care about the hair. If I can work and not be sick I will consider myself lucky. If I don’t need more surgery as well.

I am building up my exercise time, walking the neighborhood with either my husband or son. Being a fast walker, it has been hard to slow down to a pace that allows for length of time rather than speed.

The mental effort to stay positive is never-ending. I can do it when around others, it when everyone leaves that it is difficult. I read this and feel quite pathetic and whiney.

The roses are amazing at the moment and the bouquets they make are lovely. The donut peach has tiny little peaches and the apple trees are leafing out. Oh, and the weeds are going like…well you know.