Watermelon Woman


Home Again
April 21, 2009, Tuesday,10:15 am
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It has been a rough week but happy to  be back home from the hospital. Major surgery was new for me, but I do seem to be progressing in my recovery well.  Five days hospitalized and a “good” stay all things considered.

Ovarian cancer is a silent killer. I was lucky to have had a minor pain not related that had me in to the doctor sooner than my normal routine.  Can there be anything more shocking to hear you have cancer, any cancer? Most women have heard of ovarian cancer even if it just hearing about celebrities such as Gilda Radner. And the news is usually not good, often the cells have progressed to Stage 4.  I am stage 3 which gives me a chance to fight off any cancer remaining with chemotherapy.

Living in surreality is the closest I can come to expressing what I’m feeling. Yes, I have heard the news, had surgery and facing chemo, yet it is somehow separate from me. Is this denial? Priorities are following away or rearranging themselves mighty fast. Petty doesn’t cut it anymore or office politics, there isn’t time. Sweet time.

So from the bubble world, I am sitting in my husband’s recliner and I can see two new yellow roses blooming from a bare root I planted last fall, and the little seedlings waiting to be planted in the garden. I will have some plants that survive my absence and I may yet get to plant them myself. But not yet.

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